I had intended to keep this blog to only life coaching thoughts.. but then again as I reassure my clients that nothing is too trivial to bring up because we are whole persons rather than compartmentalised beings, my spiritual thoughts are also a part of me... so this is me sharing some inner thoughts...
What looms in our hearts and mind?
When I journeyed into my heart, I wonder if I would find Jesus?
As I still my heart, I was fearful. I was afraid that I may realised Jesus is not there. I would be caught in shock. Hadn’t I invited Him into my heart decades ago? Hadn’t I devoted to serve Him all these years? What if, just what if, I did not find Him in my heart?
I realised I am relating to Jesus as if He were a mere human being. My heart is faltering and erring… but Jesus is not. When I invited Him into my heart, He has come to stay and uphold me. My emotions may erode, my focus may be distracted, my limbs may grow lazy or weary to serve Him, but He who is faithful will be faithful to the end. May I learn not to over-wonder and over-wander… (many ladies love to do this.. especially me... endless what ifs and if onlys...) Even on dark days, may I hold weakly and desperately to Him… And on sunny days, remember to dance before Him….
If you cannot find Jesus in your heart, don’t fret, He is still very near… maybe at your blind spot… turn around, turn back, you will find Him… right there, waiting for you.. always. His eyes are on you even when your eyes are not on Him.
Thank you Jesus for always being there, even when I don’t feel it or sense it.
So even when my heart is lost, my God is not lost... His eyes are on me. He will find me, call me and my heart will find its place when I hearken to His voice =)