Philippians 1:21-30 (NLT)

Dear God,
I wonder if I do not fully appreciate You and the goodness of Your presence. I long for Your presence while living, I do not long to go to You like Paul did. Help me grasp the depth of the blessing of knowing You. These days, I realised that it is truly a privilege to be able to trust in Christ. I am learning how to appreciate the privilege to suffer for Him. Perhaps replacing the word "suffer" with "love" may be more easily acceptable. It is easier to say, I would love to love You than it is to say, I would love to suffer for You. True love is always witnessed through willingness to suffer for the sake of the other. Fluttering of the heart is but a moment of passion but love in action even when it hurts is a true test. While I am no where near this state for now, and since I am still alive and in no danger, help me to do fruitful work for Christ. Help me to live a life worthy of having the privilege of possessing and proclaiming the gospel. And help me build tenacity within that if the occasion arises for me to suffer for You, I will have enough faith not to back out. 
​In Jesus' name I pray, amen.